Sketching what’s in front of me, however fast - however skewed, helps me let go and reconnect simultaneously. A simple paradox created with fluid flicks of ink, a backdrop and freedom from perfection.
For Steven, Acrylic on canvas, 18in x 24in, 2016
But after hours and hours of fog, sleep only brought me straight to the eye of the storm. Ridding myself of numbness, exhaustion and longing took over my motives for coming back to life, however far away life was. Relief that the deliberation between wanting to be consumed by the emptiness and needing to escape it had not yet arrived.
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I wrote this excerpt 2 years ago. I found it in my dropbox while hiding at my desk in an attempt to escape the chaos of a major work event. Reading it confirmed how badly I miss writing and drawing and creating daily. In these moments I don’t realize the good deed I am doing myself, but without these things I become broken in a static way. In a nonsensical, desperate way. I don’t feel empty anymore. Just stuck, and a little bit afraid.
Succulent Watercolor #2, 6in x 4in, 2015 for silenteaglesucculents.
Etsy: Tin Moon Theory
Succulent Watercolor #4, 6in x 4in, 2015 for silenteaglesucculents.
Etsy: Tin Moon Theory
I feel human today. Big thanks to my friend Jack for buying this piece (and 3 others!) just because it’s weird and I’m weird and he’s weird.
Succulent Watercolor #5, 6in x 4in, 2015 for silenteaglesucculents.
More unsold works on Etsy: Tin Moon Theory
Succulent Watercolor #7, 6in x 4in, 2015 for silenteaglesucculents.
Etsy: Tin Moon Theory
I’m 25 today.
This past year was strange: some high-highs amid some low-lows, with a bit of art in the interim. I now have more questions than I ever did answers, but I am becoming much more prepared to deal with the not-knowing than I was fidgeting wildly with the unknown.
May peace flow through us until its warmth becomes us.
Art isn’t always about something, sometimes it IS something. Perhaps it’s fear flowing mercilessly through ink, chaotic and dripping - a taunting ooze of uncertainty. Art isn’t always about something. Sometimes the fear burrowed inside us escapes, and before we know what we’ve done, we’re better for having done it.
Succulent Watercolor #1, 6in x 4in, 2015 for silenteaglesucculents.
Etsy: Tin Moon Theory
Hug me; it’s Friday. (silenteaglesucculents)
On my Etsy: Tin Moon Theory
Succulent Watercolor #6, 6in x 4 in, 2015 with silenteaglesucculents.
I finally made an Etsy! If you’d like a cosmic plant-like little doodle thing, check out the shop. Tin Moon Theory is the name.
ArtWalk Ventura is next weekend, holy shucculent. Here are a few watercolors I’ve been growing for the special occasion (and for wrangling in my wild mind during fits of anxiety, soo fun, not). Hope you like them at least a little! Come see us ( silenteaglesucculents ) during the thing at Stoneworks Studios July 18 & 19. 300 N. Ventura Ave. Ventura, California. Most of our plants and my original watercolors are $5 - $20 each, serio.
She dreamt with the whole universe in her face. She swallowed bodies and comets and light. She awoke with the whole world in her face. She inhaled. She inhaled.
(Source: melissaarellanoart)
